Bitchin Friday: Self Sabotage

            The arctic chill is gone from Seattle, and with it my excuses to stay in and be antisocial.  If you recall in my Monday’s blog, I went out last week to a film meet up and did the whole meet and greet with people.  Afterwards I will send an email out to those who I have met to give them a reminder of who I was.   But after that initial email I will never write back.

            I know many professionals are probably yelling at me right now to follow every couple of months to update on what I am doing and to see if they are working on anything.  This is where I will self sabotage my self.  Sometimes I feel like I don’t have anything worthy to report to them and I don’t want to become a nag. 

            I even feel like I over analyze every little word that I have said to that person.  I will replay conversations in my head and worry about what I have said to them. At times I would write up 3-4 drafts of a reply to someone and still feel like I messed up in the correspondence some how. 

            My problem is the lack of confidence and being overly shy.  I have gotten a lot better, but I still suffer from these little self sabotages that I feel takes me back to square one.  This usually happens to me when meeting with someone for the first time. Once I have known the person for a while or even have a sit down with them that confidence comes back. 

            I can not rely on other people to take that first step to getting to know me and my work, I need to step up and continue threw trial an error to reach out to clients. 

Here is to hoping that one day I can land myself into a comfy sound studio working on films and animation. 

            Got any anxieties or you are a self sabotager?  What do you do to get over that hump?  Leave comments below and I will see you Monday for another wrap-up to my week.

             

           

See you on the other side.